happy birthday mia!

To Mia's Heavenly Father...I dedicate her life to You as her momma. Thank you that of all the times in history you chose for her to live now...thank you that I get to be her mommy.

Dear Mia- My precious Mia!

Happy Birthday love bug! ELEVEN!!! Your both hands and a toe ;)

Mia the day you were born the world received a gift. The first thing that everyone noticed (and I mean EVERYONE) was your thick black hair & bright blue eyes. The word "beautiful" must have been said over a hundred times in your first 15 minutes of life!

Hours after your birth I nursed you. I sang the "I love you, I love you, I love you" song. I love you Mia McCall over and over. So many nights I've sang that to you while you were asleep. I started thinking about your name...Mia: Mine  McCall: who resembles God.  Your mine-Your mine-Your mine.

Something crazy happened as I said that Mimi! It was like my heart & mind had the same thought at the exact same time...it was something important God needed for me to know.  SHE'S MINE. I got the chills.
This time when I looked into your blue eyes they were vacant. I froze. Kate snatched you from my arms and ran you out of the room to the nurses station. I heard voices shouting but couldn't make out what was being said. Everything was perfect & calm just moments before. Now there was no sign of peace. Different codes were being fired off over the intercom. It was chaos. When Katie came back into the room she said, "Her face turned blue Jennie. You were just staring at her. She's in the neo-natal ward...let's pray".

All I could pray...Don't take her! Don't you dare take her! She's Yours! I promise I'll never forget she's Yours! Mia, because of this next part I know that you will always be ok. The thoughts I had felt like instructions & a promise. PRAY THAT SHE WILL BE STRONG. IN HER LIFE THERE WILL BE STRUGGLES & THERE WILL BE BEAUTY. SHE'S MINE. 

Your heart had stopped baby girl. You had a hole in it. I guess that particular medical condition is common with some infants, the hole closes up on its own eventually. Your situation was unique. When the doctor returned you to me he said, "This is one strong little lady". We left the next day like nothing ever happened.

So many times you have been brave & strong Mia! Do you remember that night at Roberts when you offered to have your blood sugars tested first so Sophie wouldn't have to go it alone? You were only 3. We both knew what 286 meant. "Am I a diabetic like you mommy?" That was all you said. Knowing the love you have for your sister I've wondered if you weren't secretly relieved that it was you and not her that would be testing blood sugars several times a day and taking shots. That's the kind of heart you have.

You have never even once complained about injections. You've always administered them yourself. When you were writhing in arthritic pain...you just wanted to cuddle. You don't complain. You just do what you've got to do.

I know how strong you are Mia. I want you to know that there is strength in surrendering to your tears. I need you to know that I will always be on your side. There is nothing that you could ever-ever do, or that could happen that would keep me from loving you & your sister as much as I do . This love will last forever and we'll have even more of it than we can imagine!!

I promise that no matter what sad thing happens or illness comes our way, we're gonna be ok...something beautiful will become of it, even if it takes a really long time for it to happen. The hurt will go away. Your heart will be restored and made whole just like it was when your were a baby. Mimi I can promise this to you, because its a promise that was made to me.

I can't explain what it does to me when someone says that we're alike...I must be amazing! That's what I think. I wanna be just like you!!! Thank you for sharing your heart with me. Your hurts and hopes.

Eleven...This year is going to be amazing! You are filled with such a peace and joy right now. Oh my gosh your shine is off the charts...contagious. I'm so ready to have silly fun with you! Let's be frolic-aholics! Don't ever forget that you and your sister are everything to me and I'm gonna help you be what ever you want....oh yeah and your John, Paul, George and Ringo rolled into one AND your my sweet-sweet song!

i love you~i love you~i love you Mia McCall Wood. I made a wish and you came true!


love,
mommy